I am compelled to write this section in first person.
At an early age, I struggled with obesity. At the age of 9, probably 40 pounds overweight, I felt that having the last name of “Roundy” was some kind of a nasty joke that God was playing on me.
I happen to love food, the taste and the comfort it provides me when I eat. It also became my “go to” way of dealing with stress. It worked for a while but ultimately it was neither healthy or sustainable. I have had various periods of my life where I lost a significant amount of weight and even kept it off for many years. However, my “go to” relationship with food continued to be the gravity that pulled me back into obesity. In early 2015, I was diagnosed with a cancerous tumor that went from my tonsil and extended down my throat. A wake-up call? Yes; A scare? Yes; A blessing? Absolutely.
I used my 8 weeks of radiation and chemo treatments as a time of reflection and healing. I crafted my language, speaking about my “radiant light” and “love juice” treatments. During this time, I went through periods where I could barely talk and I needed to have a feeding tube installed into my stomach because I couldn’t drink enough water or eat enough food to stay hydrated and nourished. The amount of support and love that surrounded me from my wife, family, friends and business partners was amazing and beautiful.
I had the incredible opportunity to take a good look at my relationship with food during this time, as I was limited to pouring bottles of pre-mixed formula down my funnel directly into my stomach. I also looked at my relationship with myself and I became aware of places where I had pulled back in life, shut down my voice, taken on a feeling of shame, guilt, regret and resentment. I believe that it was within that fertile ground that gave rise to cancer in my throat. As I came to the place of letting go of these feelings, I felt myself step into an even greater experience of joy, happiness and love.
After being given a clean bill of health after my treatments, I was very fortunate to also regain my taste for food. Today I find myself on the path of being fully healed and having a lifelong healthy relationship with food and my body. At the time of this writing, I am at about 100 pounds overweight and I am in the process of letting the excess go by the wayside. I had to take a close look at what I have at stake, which includes the quality of my life, being around to enjoy my grandchildren and great grandchildren, and being able to fully contribute to my family, my community and my world.
My son Roy, my oldest grandson Noah and his girlfriend and I are hiking Havasupai Canyon on June 22, 2017. We will be camping for 3 nights and hiking out on Sunday, June 25, 2017. This ten-mile hike into a canyon of incredible waterfalls and swimming holes is an ideal way to stay present to all that the abundance of beauty that surrounds me and all the adventures that I have yet to live.